Sunday, January 27, 2013

Not Myself Lately


Rarely do I write anything serious but I would like to take a minute to be completely honest. Last week I was not myself. I was fine on Sunday, I watched football and wrote my normal, hilarious blog post. From Monday to Thursday I felt angry and depressed. I went to sleep anxious and woke up miserable. I dreaded going to work and hated every minute I was there. Every customer annoyed the crap out of me for some reason. I even broke down and cried at work on Thursday. I barely knew why it happened. It was uncontrollable too like a whole bunch of stuff was bottled in and it needed to get out. Normally after I have a good cry I feel better but I didn't feel that much different after this time. I was still in a bad mood the rest of the day. I eventually got over what was bothering me and was my normal self by Friday.

I tried to figure out what was bothering me and came up with a few conclusions but couldn't narrow it down completely. I think I might have been going through male menopause. It was just random emotion that I could not control. Nothing could put me in a good mood, I couldn't even blog, that is how bad it was. Let's hope I don't have a nervous breakdown again any time soon.

I really fell behind in my blogging responsibilities. I was doing so well then I got sick and then this shit happened. I'm ready for a fresh start this week. I have a lot of good things planned. I am trying to get back to my roots. I was reading some old posts of mine from 2010 and I was literally laughing out loud from them. I never realized how hilarious I am. I was reading my Battle of the Cereal Mascots posts. If you haven't read them, I highly recommend that you do so. There were 7 battles in total. It felt good to laugh at what I had written and got me all juiced up to want to write. I plan on resurrecting my Battle posts. Stay tuned for one to happen real soon.

14 comments:

Ms. A said...

Pregnancy mood swings?

Keetha Broyles said...


If this keeps happening, you need to chat with your doctor about it. Some of what you describe are classic symptoms of depression and there are treatments that can "even" you out and make life livable.

I know.

I'm married to someone who HAS to stay on his meds or we all know it rather quickly.

Baby Sister said...

I hate when I have days like that. When I first got on birth control my emotions were wild and I couldn't figure out why. It took my sister reminding me I was on birth control for me to realize it.
I'm excited for more Battle posts. I liked the cereal ones. They were pretty humorous.

Mark said...

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Especially because it was your own work that pulled you through in the end. I broke down at work once...twice...okay three times. It's the main reason I gave in and went to therapy. It sounds like you were just having a rough time that's over now though, so I don't think you need to consider it.

Cheryl said...

I am sorry you had a week like that. Hopefully this will be a much better week for you. I love that you went back and laughed at your old posts.

I went back to a couple of mine that keep getting new hits and am left wondering if I was having a bad day when I wrote them.

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Dude, you are way too young for a midlife crisis! Really hope you can snap the funk.
Yes I do remember the cereal mascot battles and they were hilarious. I think it would do you a lot of good if you got back to some of that funny stuff.

Rawknrobyn.blogspot.com said...

Sorry, PTM. It happens to the best of us. So many big-time life changes going on for you, even Powdered Toast Man is bound to reach a breaking point.

Your cereal mascot posts were awesome. You should run that series again.

xoRobyn

Adam said...

I got sick not long ago too, it's not fun that's for sure.

Chuck said...

Too much of the black acid??? Seriously, the battles were always hilarious. What is weirdly ironic is that I was reading some of my old posts from the first 18 months or so of my blog life. I laughed my ass off and was truly impressed with myself.

And like Clay Matthews in his Clay Cave...I felt...better.

klahanie said...

Focus on all the positives and don't let any negative speculation hamper a good time.

Read your own stuff some more, have a laugh, run naked down the street, get arrested and realise how much fun your life is.

Yes dude, you are getting advice from a famous Jack Russell dog. Your life just got better! Arf! Arf!

Penny the Jack Russell dog and modest internet superstar!

Kal said...

Oh Man, reading back through your own posts is a magic potion that always makes me feel good. It's not the destination, it's the journey, right?

Pat Tillett said...

I look back at my old stuff and really like it also. Too bad I was the only one following my blog...

Seriously, take to your doc about it. He may be able to help. Just consider it part of taking care of yourself.

Birgit said...

Sometimes life can be going very well and the dark cloud just slams into us and we can't shake it and don;t even know why it is there. I agree to talk to your doc about it. Maybe, with time, it will come to you what may have set this off if anything. Sometimes when things are going really well, it can come up. Thoughts are with you and definately laughter is a great thing.

DEZMOND said...

male menopause usually starts after we are 30! That is when our belly starts growing due to the slower metabolism, that is when everybody expects from you to be super successful provider and you fall into depression.... it happens to most of men.